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have always done this, will always do this. i love the way my handwriting takes form of my mood. and the things i find beautiful change according to the seasons of my life. these two diaries are my most precious.
Date: August 16th, 2025
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make your books your own. no blasphemy, only joy. don’t fold the corners though. or do. who cares, itโs your copy! who cares about those who care?! add colours to your life. pencil colours, crayons, oil pastels, whatever you like the most. draw the subject matter. draw little emojis of feelings. capture your teenage self. you’re never gonna be this beautiful. nobody’s getting any younger. let’s make the most of it all! follow along for more. comment ideas for more. joy is important. joy is precious. I’m trying to discover my own style, my own taste, my own artstyle. create more, think less. you’ll inevitably find your way back to yourself.
Date: 11th August, 2025
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skies before screens. and the treatment to any kinda blues is greens + reds + yellows. follow to see how i made bookmarks with the flower. struggling with consistency. trying my best. adulthood is just protecting your peace, no matter what. learning, learning, failing, learning. falling face flat. don’t know what keeps happening in my life. how do i end up getting everything wrong. trying, trying, trying, not trying. getting tired. drained out. why can’t everything be easy. everything used to be so easy. i was so protected. all of a sudden, things are just… raw now.
Date: May 28th, 2025
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mom was like I won’t draw the koi fish because I’m a vegetarian. this was fun to create.
Date: May 19th, 2025
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It’s a series I’ve started on Shorts on my YouTube channel.
This seriesโwatch itย here!โwanna start to finish. Not to post everyday. But to post 30 things. My internship doesn’t allow me the privilege for that.
Little joys. I love Tom Rosenthal’s song. Looking forward to see what I create! How much I learn along the way.
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21 // The Boy, the Mole, the Fox and the Horse (Charlie Mackesy, 2019)
5 // The Defining Decade: Why Your Twenties Matter–And How to Make the Most of Them Now (Meg Jay, 2012)
3 // The Consolations of Philosophy (Alain de Botton, 2000)
18 // Before We Forget Kindness (Toshikazu Kawaguchi, 2024)
15 // The Unbearable Lightness of Being (Milan Kundera, 1984
17 // Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking (Susan Cain, 2012)
23 // My Husband: A Novel (Maud Ventura, 2023)
17 // Useful Not True (Derek Sivers, 2024)
25 // An Education in Happiness: The Lessons of Hesse and Tagore (Flavia Arzeni, 2008
25 // Counting Backwards: A Doctor’s Notes on Anesthesia (Henry Jay Przybylo, 2017)
29 // The Architecture of Happiness (Alain de Botton, 2006)
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March = 2
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17 // Please Look After Mother (Kyung-Sook Shin, 2008)
14 // The School of Life: An Emotional Education (The School of Life, introduction by Alain de Botton, 2012)
20 // I Who Have Never Known Men (Jacqueline Harpman, 1995)
18 // The Forty Rules of Love (Elif Shafak, 2009)
14 // Storyworthy: Engage, Teach, Persuade, and Change Your Life Through the Power of Storytelling (Matthew Dicks, 2018)
6 // Written on the Body (Jeanette Winterson, 1992)
25 // Ordinary Human Failings: A Novel (Megan Nolan, 2023)
22 // South of the Border, West of the Sun (Haruki Murakami, 1992)
30 // Conversations with Friends (Sally Rooney, 2017)
To hold accountability for myself (and to have a place to store all of the thoughts while reading the book, for help in scripting a final YouTube video (or multiple videos on each point)) here is where I list down all thoughts in the form of mini-essays and headings:
The title Amusing Ourselves to Death feels profoundly relevant, especially in todayโs digital age, where entertainment has taken over nearly every aspect of life. Social media platforms, streaming services, and short-form content like reels and TikToks cater toโand feed ontoโour constant craving for amusement, often at the expense of critical thinking. It makes an already bad situation worse, and keeps on worsening it.
Much like Postmanโs critique of television, modern digital tools prioritize instant gratification. Spectacle over depth and truth. Political campaigns are reduced to viral moments, news is sensationalized for clicks, and even education is gamified to maintain attention. Some things work to benefit, some to detriment.
In a time when distraction has become a cultural norm for all ages, the title underlines the stark reality: societyโs over-reliance on amusement as a form of engagement risks trivializing important issues and eroding intellectual discourse, making Postmanโs warning more urgent and relevant than ever.
We were keeping our eye on 1984. When the year came and the prophecy didn’t, thoughtful Americans sang softly in praise of themselves. The roots of liberal democracy had held. Wher- ever else the terror had happened, we, at least, had not been visited by Orwellian nightmares.
But we had forgotten that alongside Orwell’s dark vision, there was another-slightly older, slightly less well known, equally chilling: Aldous Huxley’s Brave New World. Contrary to common belief even among the educated, Huxley and Orwell did not prophesy the same thing. Orwell warns that we will be overcome by an externally imposed oppression. But in Huxley’s vision, no Big Brother is required to deprive people of their autonomy, maturity and history. As he saw it, people will come to love their oppression, to adore the technologies that undo their capacities to think.
What Orwell feared were those who would ban books. What Huxley feared was that there would be no reason to ban a book, for there would be no one who wanted to read one. Orwell feared those who would deprive us of information. Huxley feared those who would give us so much that we would be reduced to passivity and egoism. Orwell feared that the truth would be concealed from us. Huxley feared the truth would be drowned in a sea of irrelevance. Orwell feared we would become a captive culture. Huxley feared we would become a trivial culture, preoccupied with some equivalent of the feelies, the orgy porgy, and the centrifugal bumblepuppy. As Huxley remarked in Brave New World Revisited, the civil libertarians and rationalists who are ever on the alert to oppose tyranny “failed to take into account man’s almost infinite appetite for distrac- tions.” In 1984, Huxley added, people are controlled by inflict- ing pain. In Brave New World, they are controlled by inflicting pleasure. In short, Orwell feared that what we hate will ruin us. Huxley feared that what we love will ruin us.This book is about the possibility that Huxley, not Orwell, was right.
In the Foreword of Amusing Ourselves To Death, by Neil Postman
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Neil Postman juxtaposes the dystopian visions of George Orwellโs 1984 and Aldous Huxleyโs Brave New World to contextualize his argument about the dangers of media-driven culture. While both authors warned of the same end result (i.e. societies losing their freedom and hence, humanity), they envisioned different mechanisms for this decline.
Orwell’s 1984: External Oppression by Force
Orwell imagined a society dominated by authoritarian regimes that use force and censorship to suppress ideas and control people. Truth is actively distorted. Individuality is crushed under a surveillance state. Fear ensures obedience. Punishment and propaganda are used as whips to keep citizens in line.
Huxley’s Brave New World: Internal Oppression by Pleasure
Huxley wrote of a society enslaved by its own desires and distractions. In his world, truth and critical thinking are irrelevant because people are pacified by endless entertainment, consumerism, and indulgence in pleasure. Individuals willingly surrender their autonomy because they are too distracted or content to care about deeper issues.
Which one of these dystopias feel closer to present day home? Are people not reading books because they’re banned by the government, or are they not reading books because they can’t, because it’s just that difficult, because there’s better (read as: easier, more pleasurable) things to do? You spend 8 hours on Instagram or Tik tok or Twitter or YouTube or your chosen drug and do you remember all that you saw? Is that how you want to be spending your 8 hours? Thoughtlessly, mindlessly, with zero intentionality. (Refer to: how in Flow the author writes that even leisure time should have intentional structure for it to be enjoyable.)
Our passive surrender to pleasure and trivial amusements is what has made critical thinking obsolete.
(simplified: carrot vs stick)

Comment on Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience, by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi, and how he writes that even leisure time needs a certain degree of structure for it to be beneficial for you. Pleasure has completely changed its meaning. We don’t find that many things funny lately. Our standards have lowered. Even mildly amusing is deemed as valuable enough to occupy our time.
(past vs present, how the meaning of pleasure has changed for us)
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4 // Open Water (Caleb Azumah Nelson, 2021)
12 // The Song of the Cell: An Exploration of Medicine and the New Human (Siddhartha Mukherjee, 2022)
3 // Every Patient Tells a Story: Medical Mysteries and the Art of Diagnosis (Lisa Sanders, 2009)
18 // A Little Life (Hanya Yanagihara, 2015)
26 // Tender Is the Flesh (Agustina Bazterrica, 2017)
4 // Norwegian Wood (Haruki Murakami, 1987)
17 // The Lupus Book: A Guide for Patients and Their Families (Daniel J. Wallace, 1995)
19 // Hold Me Tight (Sue Johnson, 2008)
21 // How to Love (Thich Nhat Hanh, 2014)
2 // The Course of Love (Alain de Botton, 2016)
10 // Jaya: An Illustrated Retelling Of The Mahabharata (Devdutt Pattanaik, 2010)
10 // How to Relax (Thich Nhat Hanh, 2015)
13 // Vampire in Love (Enrique Vila-Matas, 2016)
26 // The Kind Worth Killing (Peter Swanson, 2015)
5 // The Joy of Not Thinking: A Radical Approach to Happiness (Tim Grimes, 2019)
10 // Essays in Love (Alain de Botton, 1993)
17 // Anxiously Attached: Becoming More Secure in Life and Love (Jessica Baum, 2022)
6 // Fear of Missing Out: Practical Decision-Making in a World of Overwhelming Choice (Patrick James McGinnis, 2020)
4 // The Book Thief (Markus Zusak, 2005)
17 // Gone Girl (Gillian Flynn, 2012)
19 // The Little Book of Skin Care: Korean Beauty Secrets for Healthy, Glowing Skin (Charlotte Cho, 2015)
1 // Courage to be Disliked (Fumitake Koga and Ichiro Kishimi, 2013)
7 // Why be Happy When You Could be Normal? (Jeanette Winterson, 2011)
22 // Create Dangerously (Albert Camus, 1958)
25 // Letters to a Young Poet (Rainer Maria Rilke, 1929)
5 // Sleep Smarter: 21 Essential Strategies to Sleep Your Way to a Better Body, Better Health, and Bigger Success (Shawn Stevenson, 2014)
31 // The Echo Wife (Sarah Gailey, 2021)
20 // Feminine Lost: Why Most Women are Male (Jennifer Granger, 2014)
14 // Meditations (Marcus Aurelius, 1634)